Coralee
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I want to hear from others who experienced a black void during their near death experience (NDE). I posted my story here and I hope other survivors will be willing to share their experience too. It took me nearly two weeks to feel grounded in my body again after that experience. I didn't want to talk to anyone about it. I felt like this is a form of reality but the afterlife is a supereality which makes this life feel like a dream. I felt like I had been sleeping and I was finally awake when had my NDE. It's hard to explain. The other side was so vast and enormous in comparison to this tiny space we occupy.
------My NDE-->
In the fall of 1993, I was 17 and I had been suffering from severe depression for some time. I had crying spells just about everyday. I finished a course of Accutane pills which made my mood swings more erratic even though it cleared my skin. I decided to just end my life in this horrible reality by overdosing on sleeping pills sometime around 10:30 PM. Their was a Persieds meteor shower taking place during that time. I remembered a few pills were missing from the box but I took most of the pills. As I ingested the pills I wondered what would become of me? Will this be painful? I thought, "It doesn't matter".
I went to sleep then I remember experiencing the most frightening and enlightening experience I had ever been through-a distressing near death experience. It was unlike the first time I had an NDE as a child when I just blacked out due to a febrile seizure.
I remember feeling like my spirit was free and removed from my body. Not being in a body made me feel vulnerable and scared. It was so dark and I heard a whooshing sound. I didn't know where I was going. I was so afraid I would never see my family or this reality again.
To be dreadfully honest, you don't know the meaning of scared until you end up in that void! I felt ripped from reality. I felt my soul wobbly floating in an empty dark space of blackness. I couldn't see anything. It looked like space without stars. Only my thoughts still existed. I do recall feeling cold but not the kind of cold you feel when you are alive. It was a soul cold. I wasn't sure why my spirit was chilly. Unless it has something to do with not having a body in nothingness. It's not the type of chill you can warm up with a blanket.
Earth as I remembered it seemed like a matrix..just a dream I could never return to. I felt like I was awake for the first time. I wanted to be with my family. I felt like I would never find them again. I felt like I was lost in an empty deep space without stars forever. I couldn't believe how lost I was with no one to reach out too. I was terrified.
I kept thinking how ridiculous I was to fear the little stuff on Earth in comparison to being in a void. I felt lied to about my existence. I was angry at God for carelessly allowing me to be in a void. How could a loving God do this to me? Was this the ultimate reality? Floating in the void forever with just my thoughts? This event still bugs me to this day.
I screamed a silent scream because I didn't have a body to vocalize my thoughts. It was telepathic communication but it seemed like nothing was there to listen to me. All I could see was limitless darkness from every angle. Earth seemed so compartmentalized in comparison. I believe I escaped the void when I pleaded for God to bring me back to my family.
That's when I ended up in a large, dimly blue lit room with souls that appeared to be on the ground. I was floating above them before three large screens expanded and surrounded me. I had a life review. Time was different. The past, present and future seemed to be connected. I remember seeing my family. I was with them as a young child playing in front of the motel they once owned. We were next to a birch tree. I felt their love. It felt like I was living the scene all over again. I was in it but it was a review.
I began to sense something powerful. I knew it was a higher source meeting me after my life review. I was embarrassed and I felt very shameful and insignificant.
An invisible guide asked me if I wanted to stay or go back. The voice had a male sound but it was hard to determine. A lovingly blissful light shone down on me from above. It surrounded my spirit and I finally felt peace. I felt at home, safe and unconditional love which I never felt before on Earth.
I asked the guide and God what was the purpose of life? I heard a pause and sort of a sound of someone sighing. It was as if this entity felt I should know the answer. It said, "The purpose of life is to love". The guide said I had ten minutes to chose to stay or go back. I agreed and told them to send me back to my family.
I remember darkness unlike the inky black void I experienced earlier. It felt like I was going through a tunnel because I heard a whooshing sound. I then woke up in my room. My senses were heightened. A light mist surrounded everything. I heard my heart beat then stop. I felt my mortality and I became very angry. I could feel my life slipping away. I fought for my life and asked God, " How can you kill off my soul like it doesn't matter? I am real and I don't deserve this".
When I look back at that moment I think I was feeling shock from being removed from God's presence. Feeling the decaying energy of this world can be a shock. I managed to get up. I got on my step machine for a minute hoping to get my heart beat going. I stopped after two steps. I stumbled to the end of the stairs on my parent's side of the house. I tried to wake them up with a silent scream. I didn't have enough energy to yell. So I tried to pound the stairs and yell.
Fortunately, my mom is a light sleeper. She woke up and called 911. The medics arrived and wanted to know how many pills I took exactly. I told them I didn't know. It was most of the box because some pills were missing. I made it to the hospital and they injected me with medicine. The doctor said I should have been dead and I was lucky to be alive.
------My NDE-->
In the fall of 1993, I was 17 and I had been suffering from severe depression for some time. I had crying spells just about everyday. I finished a course of Accutane pills which made my mood swings more erratic even though it cleared my skin. I decided to just end my life in this horrible reality by overdosing on sleeping pills sometime around 10:30 PM. Their was a Persieds meteor shower taking place during that time. I remembered a few pills were missing from the box but I took most of the pills. As I ingested the pills I wondered what would become of me? Will this be painful? I thought, "It doesn't matter".
I went to sleep then I remember experiencing the most frightening and enlightening experience I had ever been through-a distressing near death experience. It was unlike the first time I had an NDE as a child when I just blacked out due to a febrile seizure.
I remember feeling like my spirit was free and removed from my body. Not being in a body made me feel vulnerable and scared. It was so dark and I heard a whooshing sound. I didn't know where I was going. I was so afraid I would never see my family or this reality again.
To be dreadfully honest, you don't know the meaning of scared until you end up in that void! I felt ripped from reality. I felt my soul wobbly floating in an empty dark space of blackness. I couldn't see anything. It looked like space without stars. Only my thoughts still existed. I do recall feeling cold but not the kind of cold you feel when you are alive. It was a soul cold. I wasn't sure why my spirit was chilly. Unless it has something to do with not having a body in nothingness. It's not the type of chill you can warm up with a blanket.
Earth as I remembered it seemed like a matrix..just a dream I could never return to. I felt like I was awake for the first time. I wanted to be with my family. I felt like I would never find them again. I felt like I was lost in an empty deep space without stars forever. I couldn't believe how lost I was with no one to reach out too. I was terrified.
I kept thinking how ridiculous I was to fear the little stuff on Earth in comparison to being in a void. I felt lied to about my existence. I was angry at God for carelessly allowing me to be in a void. How could a loving God do this to me? Was this the ultimate reality? Floating in the void forever with just my thoughts? This event still bugs me to this day.
I screamed a silent scream because I didn't have a body to vocalize my thoughts. It was telepathic communication but it seemed like nothing was there to listen to me. All I could see was limitless darkness from every angle. Earth seemed so compartmentalized in comparison. I believe I escaped the void when I pleaded for God to bring me back to my family.
That's when I ended up in a large, dimly blue lit room with souls that appeared to be on the ground. I was floating above them before three large screens expanded and surrounded me. I had a life review. Time was different. The past, present and future seemed to be connected. I remember seeing my family. I was with them as a young child playing in front of the motel they once owned. We were next to a birch tree. I felt their love. It felt like I was living the scene all over again. I was in it but it was a review.
I began to sense something powerful. I knew it was a higher source meeting me after my life review. I was embarrassed and I felt very shameful and insignificant.
An invisible guide asked me if I wanted to stay or go back. The voice had a male sound but it was hard to determine. A lovingly blissful light shone down on me from above. It surrounded my spirit and I finally felt peace. I felt at home, safe and unconditional love which I never felt before on Earth.
I asked the guide and God what was the purpose of life? I heard a pause and sort of a sound of someone sighing. It was as if this entity felt I should know the answer. It said, "The purpose of life is to love". The guide said I had ten minutes to chose to stay or go back. I agreed and told them to send me back to my family.
I remember darkness unlike the inky black void I experienced earlier. It felt like I was going through a tunnel because I heard a whooshing sound. I then woke up in my room. My senses were heightened. A light mist surrounded everything. I heard my heart beat then stop. I felt my mortality and I became very angry. I could feel my life slipping away. I fought for my life and asked God, " How can you kill off my soul like it doesn't matter? I am real and I don't deserve this".
When I look back at that moment I think I was feeling shock from being removed from God's presence. Feeling the decaying energy of this world can be a shock. I managed to get up. I got on my step machine for a minute hoping to get my heart beat going. I stopped after two steps. I stumbled to the end of the stairs on my parent's side of the house. I tried to wake them up with a silent scream. I didn't have enough energy to yell. So I tried to pound the stairs and yell.
Fortunately, my mom is a light sleeper. She woke up and called 911. The medics arrived and wanted to know how many pills I took exactly. I told them I didn't know. It was most of the box because some pills were missing. I made it to the hospital and they injected me with medicine. The doctor said I should have been dead and I was lucky to be alive.
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