Ok, let's turn to your narrative of me. I've given you other homework above so I'm going to go straight to my answer. I've written about all of this many times on the forum. There are a lot of posts to read so perhaps you just simply didn't catch them. I'll just lay it out briefly here but feel free to ask follow up questions and I'd be happy to elaborate.
1) rigity: I can see I think why you might interpret my posts as rigid. How I view myself: I don't view my positions as rigid - I ask myself so many questions and don't feel like I have all that many firm answers that I don't think rigidity is the right term! I do try and take a fairly rigid approach to trying to figure this stuff out though. I am aware of my biases. In order to attempt to control for them I go through a certain thought process. I try to lay out my thought process in my posts in the hope of generating responses to give myself the best chance of detecting errors. I'm prepared to change my views in relation to the response. The thing is, I don't consider it likely that my views will change in response to a reply if the reply hasn't actually addressed the concern or argument in my post!
2. my world view settlling as a teen. I've written about this several times on the forum over the years. I became an atheist around the age of 12. I can't pretend my thought process was all that rigourous at the time. I can recall going to Sunday school, hearing all these stories and gradually I just stopped buying it. But from my perspective, that's about as far as I got for a REALLY long time! I can't recall ever giving these questions all that much thought until university. If you would have asked me directly at the time whether I believed in spiritual things I would have probably answered no but I can't recall ever spending all that much time thinking about spiritual topics prior to university. I thihk I've posted this before but I can't recall even having come across the term "worldview" before getting being exposed to skeptical podcasts like Skeptiko. Certainly I had never thought about it in any formal way prior to then!
3. science: you're actually WAY off on this one, and I've written about this before as well. I had little interest in science before being exposed to Skeptiko and other skeptical podcasts and I've expressed regret on this forum that I didn't develop an interest sooner in life. I took the minimum amount of science classes in school and never cared much for the ones I had to take. My university degrees were history/polisci and Law. My interest in science was born when I discovered skeptic podcasts. For all intentst and purposes my scientific knowledge pre-Skpeptiko should be considered utter ignorance. All of my knowledge about science has come since that time. I'm playing catch up here.
As for my guiding light. My thought process has unquestionably been influenced significantly by what I've learned about the scientific method in recent year. No question. But my guiding light? You're looking at it right now! It's my thought process. My posts are me working out these issues in real time. Setting out my arguments on this forum isn't just me relating my views to you, it is part of my process of coming to my views. Putting these thoughts in writing, I'm not just trying to get you to understand me, I'm exploring my own understanding. You interpret the doubt you see in my posts as a tactic to spread doubt. I perceive it as the way I process, challenge and aspire to resolve my own doubts.
4. "well, of course, science tells us that none of this is possible". I accept that you believe that I share this view but I'll be honest I'm not sure how you get there since it is pretty well the opposite of my position. I HATE arguments that something is not possible! Outside of math and logic I consider them to be the epitiome of arguments from ignorance. I have made so many posts against such arguments and it is so fundamental to my approach to these problems that I can't fathom how you've picked up that this is what I believe! I'd actually appreciate it if you would point me to some posts of mine that lead you to this impression because either you're completely misunderstanding me or I'm expressing myself in a way that does not reflect my actual views. If its the latter I'd really like to correct it.
5. Error detection: this is getting real long so I'll keep it to this: when I bring up the fact that our current state of knowledge on these topics is based on research that is of a high risk of error I am not suggesting that this explains what is going on. I am precisely saying that basing our conclusions on such work does not allow us to make confident assertions about the explanation. I think that unreliable premises make for unreliable conclusions, and that more unreliable premises does not correct that. I get the instinct to believe that it does. It is singled out as a logical fallacy for a reason: our instincts should not be trusted on this point. I get the instinct to look at the forest and feel that it must be so, but I think that's part of our hard-wired pattern seeking programs at work. We have reason not to trust it. Keep in mind that I get those same feelings as anyone else. I just don't consider them reliable.
See above for my answer. But the reason I pointed out that you didn't reply to that particular question was because I think it is at the crux of the matter. I still don't understand the motivation to spread the word. If anything, I do see the volume of posts from a few dedicated skeptics as an indication of an ideological mission.
But can you imagine other explanations that could be at work?
As I said earlier, I am not a member of JREF. I used to be able to read the posts without a login but they seem to have closed that door now. I did read a few of your posts and you did defend Skeptiko against some of the more rabid detractors. Nevertheless, I did not get the impression that you had any ideological distance from the prevailing worldview expressed over there. My point, yet again, was to say that I don't feel the need to join JREF and take on the skeptics in their own back yard. I believe that one or two proponents did persist in that folly but I'm at a loss to understand what they thought they would achieve.
When I joined Skeptiko it was billed as the place for Skeptics and Proponents to meet. I thought it WAS my backyard! It became my home and intellectual refuge. I won't pretend it didn't sting when certain people here rejected me who I thought considered me part of their community. I wish there was another place like the old Skeptiko but there isn't. JREF certainly doesn't feel like my home. So where else to go?