Excuse me for not responding to this earlier. I began projectile vomiting, then spent a few hours dry heaving in the kitchen while running a cheese grater over my body. I finally remembered why I had gone to the kitchen, so I started stabbing myself in the head with a dirty steak knife. I came back here to attempt a reply but blacked out. Next thing I remember I was back in the kitchen doing the stabbing thing again.
Have you tried meditating brother?