My training to develop magic is based on two core principles.
1: You are the sole authority of yourself
2: Reality is fluid and baseless, order is an illusion
This creates a fundamental contradiction. There is no reason for anything to be the way it is. However, there's also no reason for anything to change from the way it is. I.E inertia
So far in my training I've learned that mentality is the key to everything. Your perceptin of reality determines what you are willing to put effort towards and in what way. If you believe something is impossible or must be done a certain restrictive way, then that's how it is, because that's what you made it into.
Thus the goal is to understand the fluidity and irrationality of reality on a deep unconscious level to most efficiently interact with it. To never forget that there are no rules except that which you create. Thus logic is supplanted by desire, creating the first core principle above.
This also causes a contradiction, if all wills are infinitely powerful because of reality's fluidity, what happens if one directly opposes another? Best as I can tell there's two possibilities.
A: The equal and opposite infinite components cancel out, leaving a finite remainder that becomes reality for all involved.
B: Each person/thing shifts into its own unique timeline where they get their way. Thus stability is maintained by avoiding conflict.
Current reality as I experience it appears to operate solely on path A. Whatever has more power gets its way. It's also what known physics is based on. However there's no reason to believe Path B isn't also taken sometimes or simultaneously but I have no idea how I'd figure out when it happens.
It's also possible that Path B is always taken, with the difference being personal perceptions of reality making things appear more conflicted than they really are.
I believe perceptions of order in reality (The Laws of Physics) stems from the repeated loss of path A conflicts, creating the illusion of an immutable order that exists outside of you. Which lead to more losses, which reinforces the belief.
AKA Learned Helplessness.
Thus magic training is little more than being loyal to yourself while understanding reality. Or, Desire*Knowledge = Result
All my experimentation thus far has demonstrated for me, beyond any shadow of any reasonable doubt, that anything you can imagine is completely possible. It has also demonstrated that the only reason I am unable to perform such things right now right in font of me on demand are my own mental/emotional blocks. Which is also why I lack control, consistency and reliabiity in the few abilities I do posess. I admit that I'm getting pretty frustrated about it at this point. I'm in a limbo state where I can do everything I want to do but I also can't do it at all.
I've been working on fixing my mentality and removing the remaining fears that I have which has caused increasing friction and frustration with reality. It feels like a building pressure as my mind instinctually rejects what's going on in front of me and tries replacing it with something else to no avail. Which is a semi-irrational outcome, which deepens my understanding of how irrational reality is, which unlocks my mind a little more when I realize my own interference, which increases the pressure for change, which seems to be getting small, tangible results.
I figure at some point local reality will cave to this pressure and I'll start getting results on the level that I actually want. It certainly feels like that's what's starting to happen. The small results I'm getting seem to indicate tha as well. At which point I can do demonstration for others to help unlock their minds. Then I can maybe start training people depending where I'm at with my own skill.
I wrote all this down to help organize my thoughts on where I'm at and what I still need to work on. I don't know if it will help anyone but I hope it does. I don't know if any of this is 100% accurate.
1: You are the sole authority of yourself
2: Reality is fluid and baseless, order is an illusion
This creates a fundamental contradiction. There is no reason for anything to be the way it is. However, there's also no reason for anything to change from the way it is. I.E inertia
So far in my training I've learned that mentality is the key to everything. Your perceptin of reality determines what you are willing to put effort towards and in what way. If you believe something is impossible or must be done a certain restrictive way, then that's how it is, because that's what you made it into.
Thus the goal is to understand the fluidity and irrationality of reality on a deep unconscious level to most efficiently interact with it. To never forget that there are no rules except that which you create. Thus logic is supplanted by desire, creating the first core principle above.
This also causes a contradiction, if all wills are infinitely powerful because of reality's fluidity, what happens if one directly opposes another? Best as I can tell there's two possibilities.
A: The equal and opposite infinite components cancel out, leaving a finite remainder that becomes reality for all involved.
B: Each person/thing shifts into its own unique timeline where they get their way. Thus stability is maintained by avoiding conflict.
Current reality as I experience it appears to operate solely on path A. Whatever has more power gets its way. It's also what known physics is based on. However there's no reason to believe Path B isn't also taken sometimes or simultaneously but I have no idea how I'd figure out when it happens.
It's also possible that Path B is always taken, with the difference being personal perceptions of reality making things appear more conflicted than they really are.
I believe perceptions of order in reality (The Laws of Physics) stems from the repeated loss of path A conflicts, creating the illusion of an immutable order that exists outside of you. Which lead to more losses, which reinforces the belief.
AKA Learned Helplessness.
Thus magic training is little more than being loyal to yourself while understanding reality. Or, Desire*Knowledge = Result
All my experimentation thus far has demonstrated for me, beyond any shadow of any reasonable doubt, that anything you can imagine is completely possible. It has also demonstrated that the only reason I am unable to perform such things right now right in font of me on demand are my own mental/emotional blocks. Which is also why I lack control, consistency and reliabiity in the few abilities I do posess. I admit that I'm getting pretty frustrated about it at this point. I'm in a limbo state where I can do everything I want to do but I also can't do it at all.
I've been working on fixing my mentality and removing the remaining fears that I have which has caused increasing friction and frustration with reality. It feels like a building pressure as my mind instinctually rejects what's going on in front of me and tries replacing it with something else to no avail. Which is a semi-irrational outcome, which deepens my understanding of how irrational reality is, which unlocks my mind a little more when I realize my own interference, which increases the pressure for change, which seems to be getting small, tangible results.
I figure at some point local reality will cave to this pressure and I'll start getting results on the level that I actually want. It certainly feels like that's what's starting to happen. The small results I'm getting seem to indicate tha as well. At which point I can do demonstration for others to help unlock their minds. Then I can maybe start training people depending where I'm at with my own skill.
I wrote all this down to help organize my thoughts on where I'm at and what I still need to work on. I don't know if it will help anyone but I hope it does. I don't know if any of this is 100% accurate.