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So what's your theory is the horus ra thing a coincidence? Was it the Marijuana mixed with cultural imprinting?
I have only used marijuana a very few times, and since I don't smoke, I used it in cakes, where the effect lasts longer.
I wasn't super keen on the effect, and the last time it made me vomit, but I was aware of strange other-worldly sensation for about an hour. I can well believe that it is a gateway to ψ phenomena, but I agree with you that it is potentially very dangerous.
I don't know if you want to talk about your father's suicide, but if that is OK, I wonder if he said anything before this happened to explain why he was disturbed enough to kill himself?
David
So what's your theory is the horus ra thing a coincidence? Was it the Marijuana mixed with cultural imprinting?
I go back to the heart it's simple, I remember who I am I remember the good things I've done and the simple way of being. Never physically hurt anyone, love animals and the beach sunshine, just the simple stuff is what helps me. I haven't smoked in over 10 years
When you mentioned the messiah something clicked. When you have or create this complex you are essentially creating another persona in your psyche, creating a messiah complex is full of ego, many new agers suffer from it, preachers, priests etc. It reminds me and brings in the perspective of "transcending good and evil" which are concepts, maybe thats why I'm taking a like to Buddhism and Tao like stuff. Christians have this messiah complex about other cultures mythos and religions and philosophies. In fact Jeffery mishlove posted a video today about dark mysticism, and some of the comments weren't nice. They Christian complex struck again, when people practice Christianity it's good mysticism if not it's bad.Wise (probably) - It's been 8 years for me. It was interesting to learn from Miguel Conner that he's like myself in that he used to struggle with addictions and was "diagnosed" bipolar.
When you mentioned the messiah something clicked. When you have or create this complex you are essentially creating another persona in your psyche, creating a messiah complex is full of ego, many new agers suffer from it, preachers, priests etc. It reminds me and brings in the perspective of "transcending good and evil" which are concepts, maybe thats why I'm taking a like to Buddhism and Tao like stuff. Christians have this messiah complex about other cultures mythos and religions and philosophies. In fact Jeffery mishlove posted a video today about dark mysticism, and some of the comments weren't nice. They Christian complex struck again, when people practice Christianity it's good mysticism if not it's bad.
This goes back to the concept of transcending good and evil, either path is essentially the same path one is taking the bus to the destination the other the train. Cause in the end they are are personified ego complexes that you create
That "stuff" seemed to me as I was reading it to be mind stuff. Not spiritual.That's why I say don't dive to deep in to the spiritual stuff sometimes or for that matter Marijuana but to each their own
Cause in point an acquaintance I know ended up going batty after she joined a church denomination, she developed this disgusting ego complex. I'd go deeper but yea she was medically "diagnosed" as batty sad to see she did a complete 180
and I had that drive to "get out." Another thing I had going for me was actually a combination of two things, the first being that I have always been incredibly curious and always asked, "Why?" about anything and everything... and the second thing was this strange "psi trait" if you will, with regards to synchronicity. And why these two helped me was because I studied literally everything, every religion, every thought system, all sorts of philosophies, indigenous beliefs, etc. and I studied all things "conspiracy" as well as all things "UFO."The way out is through
Opinion:My "current most likely theory" is that this is essentially synchromysticismic... and definitely influenced by the culture(s) I have been exposed to this life... almost as if they are convenient paradigms within which shadow and "other" can arise, yet, remain relatively disguised by my own affinity to endless "details" (as if "figuring it all out will be the way I am able to escape). And, if I dare dive deeply into my personal shadow regions of my sub-conscious (as I actually have been doing) I come more face to face with my "real self" (which, paradoxically, I see as pure illusion yet an illusion of my own creation... an illusion I have empowered all and only to make things interesting.
And indeed they have been quite interesting.
Gotta like it.Well, in my case, I somehow survived through it all. If I recall, it was Aleister Crowley to whom the following quote can be attributed:
and I had that drive to "get out." Another thing I had going for me was actually a combination of two things, the first being that I have always been incredibly curious and always asked, "Why?" about anything and everything... and the second thing was this strange "psi trait" if you will with regards to synchronicity. And why these two helped me was because I studied literally everything, every religion, every thought system, all sorts of philosophies, indigenous beliefs, etc. and I studied all things "conspiracy" as well as all things "UFO."
And what would happen is that when I read something or listened to something that "grabbed me emotionally" I would then have all sorts of synchronicities about it. And in the early days, I interpreted that experience to be "God" telling me I was on the right track! But get this, I had these same experiences with all the occult stuff too, and with apparently opposing religious paradigms. And incredibly enough, it was Skeptiko that "saved me" (haha... Alex!) from all this as I started looking at all these psi experiences and the synchronicities as simply an experience available to one who has the capacity for that opening to and participating in the extended consciousness realms without needing to explain it within any particular paradigm. - whether Christian or Satanic or Hindu or Voodoo or atheist or New Age or, or, or...
And from there I made an ordinary consciousness level of consciousness decision that I would simply explore the nature and science of being and intentionally keep myself from seeing any of it within any paradigm... and the only assumption I hold to is that consciousness is fundamental BUT, understand, even this assumption... I know it is all and only an assumption and so I am in charge on this one as opposed to my assumption being in charge of me - which is what I "believe" a belief is. haha
Adding - It seems to me that one can assume consciousness is fundamental and not "be" any of the labels, including "atheist" as so many of the atheists I know are just as militant as some of the fundamentalist Christians I know and the one thing both of them have in common is "God" as a third party - either to "believe in Him" or to claim you don't believe in him yet also claim as a certainty that materialism and/or physicalism and/or scientism is the basis of reality.
Well, in my case, I somehow survived through it all.
About the right/wrong concern, my writing might have suggested to disregard the poles, but this is not the intention of the writing.First, well done for surviving these 'episodes.' It cannot have been easy. You must be made of tough stuff. Respect.
It's interesting to note that even meditation can precipitate severe breakdowns in some people. Perhaps this is the importance of paradigms and traditions: They give direction on how to do things safely, or at least minimize risk. For example, many Buddhist and Hindu systems strongly advise against the novice (and not just the novice) paying too much attention to PSI and various other extended consciousness phenomena. Certain strains of Christian prayer practice also give guidance on how to interpret strange happenings - often suggesting a scaling back of ones regimen when they occur.
Unlike Baccarat, I see holding on to value judgements like 'good' and 'bad' to be absolutely essential here. Otherwise, what possible reference points can we have? And without reference points, how can we possibly know where we are and how to act? I suppose this is true in both a spiritual and geographic way.
I respectfully disagree, I was on the same boat before in respect to good and badFirst, well done for surviving these 'episodes.' It cannot have been easy. You must be made of tough stuff. Respect.
It's interesting to note that even meditation can precipitate severe breakdowns in some people. Perhaps this is the importance of paradigms and traditions: They give direction on how to do things safely, or at least minimize risk. For example, many Buddhist and Hindu systems strongly advise against the novice (and not just the novice) paying too much attention to PSI and various other extended consciousness phenomena. Certain strains of Christian prayer practice also give guidance on how to interpret strange happenings - often suggesting a scaling back of ones regimen when they occur.
Unlike Baccarat, I see holding on to value judgements like 'good' and 'bad' to be absolutely essential here. Otherwise, what possible reference points can we have? And without reference points, how can we possibly know where we are and how to act? I suppose this is true in both a spiritual and geographic way.
[note: I did not understand dp's statement aimed towards Bacarrat - and still don't... I must have missed something further up the thread - I am getting senile].I respectfully disagree, I was on the same boat before in respect to good and bad
Disembarking from the boat, Baccarat seems to have transcended much of the right/wrong good/bad valuable/valueless fortressing required in games conditions.I respectfully disagree, I was on the same boat before in respect to good and bad
On the other hand (and why do we have to have the other hand?) there is the truth (not just fact but truth) that existing within a physical condition, there is no choice but that one is in a playing field (a game area).Disembarking from the boat, Baccarat seems to have transcended much of the right/wrong good/bad valuable/valueless fortressing required in games conditions.
In such boat there are encounters of unreasonable disagreement. By unreasonable (assuming one is a reasoning person) I mean the thing encountered does not reason with you. Hence some unwinnable warring... and much attention diverted from some of the more beautiful aspects available to living. If in that game (that boat) it is much hard to release attention (attention is the tool of creating) from the offending opposition (whose field for existence is created with the attention).