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I read this quote from Dostoevskys The Idiot:
The moment you feel its coming on, the build-up, when you "know" that this might `be it´, and no bargaining, argument, twisting and turning, or pleading will change this.
It feels like its actually the first time that you are not in control of your body - and it is about to fail on you.
About 5 million thoughts rush through your brain in one second, trying to find a "way out" of this. It doesn't matter if someone is there to hold your hand or not because they cant do anything to help you. `This´ is about to happen to you right now - and there is nothing you can do about it.
That is what I found most scary about dying - the moment of certainty.
I guess I'm not alone feeling like this.
"…Think! When there is torture there is pain and wounds, physical agony, and all this distracts the mind from mental suffering, so that one is tormented only by the wounds until the moment of death.
But the most terrible agony may not be in the wounds themselves but in knowing for certain that within an hour - then within ten minutes - then within half a minute - now at this very instant – your soul will leave your body and you will no longer be a person, and that is certain;- the worst thing is that it is certain."
The Idiot, Dostoevsky.
....and it got me thinking. I've mentioned this before, and for me, the thought of being dead is not that worrying. I would say that is the actual `step´ that is most agonizing. Anyone who have had a death-threatening situation, of bodily character (meaning a sickness, heart attack or similar), knows how it feels.But the most terrible agony may not be in the wounds themselves but in knowing for certain that within an hour - then within ten minutes - then within half a minute - now at this very instant – your soul will leave your body and you will no longer be a person, and that is certain;- the worst thing is that it is certain."
The Idiot, Dostoevsky.
The moment you feel its coming on, the build-up, when you "know" that this might `be it´, and no bargaining, argument, twisting and turning, or pleading will change this.
It feels like its actually the first time that you are not in control of your body - and it is about to fail on you.
About 5 million thoughts rush through your brain in one second, trying to find a "way out" of this. It doesn't matter if someone is there to hold your hand or not because they cant do anything to help you. `This´ is about to happen to you right now - and there is nothing you can do about it.
That is what I found most scary about dying - the moment of certainty.
I guess I'm not alone feeling like this.